| fuck this shit, i quit yo! |
[15 Jul 2004|12:01pm] |
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i feel myself sinking in quick sand. i am so alone. i lost all my homies. i aint got shit. i dont really want n e thing 2 do with amy n e more. she fucking pisses me off to no end, hanging out with her is just a big pain in the ass. but now i am left with nothing. now all i do is drink everynight, and write lyrics. and i am pretty sure amber thinks of me as a brother. fuck this i quit!
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| crazy weekend! |
[21 Jun 2004|04:54pm] |
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I graduated bitches!!! then i got piss drunk and was asleep by 11 p.m., then saturday i went 2 sara's bbq, which was pretty cool.
Last night i went 2 see CONTRA!!! they rocked the motherfucking house! Nick is that man! and i stayed after and say this moment, and they kick ass 2! woo hoo! rock on bitches!
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| bleed me free of this misery! |
[17 Jun 2004|10:05pm] |
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i've reached the death of my desire,
there's nothing left,
hollow souls, and hollow shells,
he knows no one, nothing rings a bell,
the thrill of victory, the angony of defeat,
the birth of hatered, and deciet,
who will save the day,
grave danger is headed your way!
TIMEBOMB, feel the boom!
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| LOOK OUT BITCH! |
[17 Jun 2004|08:34pm] |
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| Informationi | | tainted emcee is a restricted area. Authorised personel only |
From Go-Quiz.com
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| u cant make me fool! |
[17 Jun 2004|08:44am] |
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| How to make a tainted emcee |
Ingredients:
3 parts anger
1 part silliness
5 parts empathy |
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little lovability if desired! |
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| victory by default |
[16 Jun 2004|04:09pm] |
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wow, 2 days till' graduation bitches!!!!
know one believed me, no one thought i would make it.
i just wanna tell those people to suck a nut and pass it on.
i thought i told u i am rocky balboa bitches!!!
everythings starting 2 come full circle, its about time yo!
now maybe people will leave me alone.
i had graduation practice 2day, that shit was funny.
mase is the man!!!! row v2 is the shit!
live by the gun, till i die by the sword!
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| 0 fo' fa sho! |
[10 Jun 2004|09:27pm] |
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CONTRA! |
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What up thugs, and hoes????
one week from graduation, and i dont even know if i am walking the line. Me and Amy are finally on good terms, i missed her like hell.
But i dont think we are together, cuz the title is just to stressful for us 2 handle i guess. And we have been pigging out all kinds! to day we had DELTA CO. haha un-scramble that one bitch!
I finally feel like things are back 2 normal.
but after graduation, then what????
I guess i will find out huh? FUCK!
Honorable Discharge kicks ass!
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| Roni's ok.... |
[31 May 2004|01:56pm] |
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Thank god my lil' sisters ok. i know me and u haven't been close like the old days. but i love you regardless. what ever u decide i will support ur decision.
dont ever forget i love you. and you are wanted here. mom and dad love you, and miss you. i'm just hope everything is okay, and we can be a family again soon.
love,
your big brother!
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| why cant i make it work? |
[27 May 2004|06:31pm] |
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why cant i make a relationship work? am i ment to be single? am i better off single? Amy says she can see the hate in my eyes, i didnt even know it was there. i am so stressed, i seriously hate everyone. i got no where to run, i dont really got no homies. and its shit like this that makes me wonder why i quit drinking. its shit this that makes me wanna unload a clip in my jaw. i thought i was ok, but apparently not. i guess i thought i was destined for better things. but i am not gonna lay in the sewer like a fucking bitch, i am gonna pick my self up. so what if i hate everyone, i got no homies. theres a reason. no distractions. i am gonna be a success, not the way you want, and if u dont like it. go fuck yourself bitch. i got love for no one, judge me, hate me, cuz i hate you all.
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| FUCK!!!! |
[24 May 2004|03:21pm] |
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Atmosphere - FUCK YOU LUCY! |
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god damn i am so sick of the fucking drama. people are telling my girlfriend that i asked other girls on dates, on the same days i had seemed to had spent all day with her. i am not a fucking celebrity, why cant i be left the fuck alone! i am so stressed out, i am probley gonna do something i will regret. fuck graduation, fuck school, just fuck everyone. i am so sick of justin and chris calling for me. when are they gonna realize i dont wanna turn in to fucking drunk ass stoners like them. just leave me alone. i am trying 2 get my shit 2gether and the last thing i need is 2 get faded. so everyone except the chosen few, FUCK OFF!
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| fuck you! |
[18 May 2004|06:26pm] |
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Basics}
I AM: Mike
I WANT: to be famous.
I HAVE: alot of problems.
I WISH: i could play pro hockey.
I HATE: math.
I MISS: not having a single worry in my life.
I FEAR: being stuck in a dead in job for the rest of my life.
I HEAR: voices in my head.
I SEARCH: for any money i can possibly find.
I WONDER: what i am gonna do when i graduate.
I REGRET: so many thingsI LOVE: music, sports, and movies.
I ACHE: i think i broke my wrist
I ALWAYS: procrastinate.
I AM NOT: a slut.
I SING: new found glory to piss people off
I CRY: when im frustrated, and when im sad.
I WRITE: songs when im in one of those moods.
I WIN: a chance to live another day
I LOSE: respect (due to bullshit rumours)
I CONFUSE: everyone with my thoughts
I NEED: money!!
I SHOULD: get a life.
FATHER THINKS I AM: talented but lazy.
MOTHER THINKS I AM: lazy and talented.
MY BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND THINKS I AM: i really dont know.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE OFTEN COMPLIMENTED FOR: my looks i guess?
YOU GET EMBARRASSED WHEN: someone calls me out on something stupid i did.
MAKES YOU HAPPY: a new can of dip.
UPSETS YOU: my friends changing for the worse, the clock ticking.
YOU KEEP A DIARY: a journal fool!
YOU LIKE TO COOK: spagetti.
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: i will bring balance to the force
YOU'RE IN LOVE: i hope so.
YOU SET YOUR WATCH A FEW MINUTES AHEAD: what watch?
YOU BITE YOUR FINGERNAILS: yeah gotta problem bitch!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: yes.
{Who is...}
THE PRETTIEST FEMALE YOU KNOW: i dont wanna say her name because i got beef wit' her.
THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: amy.
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: my sister.
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: see above.
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: my mom, and step mom
YOUR CRUSH?: amy
THE STUPIDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: all my friends are tied
{What is...}
YOUR MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON IM? LOL
THE LAST IMAGE/THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH: whatevers on tv
YOUR BEST FEATURE: i dont think i have one.
INSIDE JOKE: it wouldnt be so 'inside' if i shared it with the 'outside' now would it?
{Do You...}
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: yeah.
HAVE A(ANY) CRUSH(ES): yea.
THINK YOU KNOW YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE: yeah
WANT TO GET MARRIED: eventually.
HAVE ANY TATTOOS/WHERE?: no
PIERCINGS/WHERE?: no
GET MOTION SICKNESS: oh yeah.
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: i only eat meat.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: when i dont wanna kill them
THUNDERSTORMS: fuck that!
{Other}
SIGN: sagitarius
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: Oxnard, CA
NAME 3 BANDS/ARTISTS YOU LISTEN TO: atmosphere, 50cent, h.i.m
NAME 9 THINGS YOU DISLIKE:
1. fruit (unless its in smoothie form
2. stupid people
3. bitches
4. school
5. life
6. being poor
7. drama
8. MURDA' INK
9. you
{Family}
PARENTS: Ed and Letica (devorced
SIBLINGS: Amanda-23 yrs.
{Favorite}
SONG: As i lay dying - i gave my heart away?
SEASON: winter
SPORT: football or hockey
DRINK: apple juice
VEGGIE: i could give a fuckless
{Preferences}
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: depends.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: hot chocolate.
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: milk.
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?: chocolate
{In the last 24 hours, have you....}
CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE?: yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: no
GOTTEN SICK?: no
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: no.
TALKED TO AN EX?: yea
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: as we speak.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON?: yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes.
MISSED SOMEONE?: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: kinda
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: dont really talk 2 them n e more
{Would You Ever?}
EAT A BUG?: whats in it for me?
BUNGEE JUMP?: no
HANG GLIDE?: no
KILL SOMEONE?: yeah
HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU DON'T LOVE?: no.
KISS SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?: fuck no
HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?: fuck no
WALK ON HOT COALS?: why do u care
GO OUT WITH SOMEONE FOR THEIR LOOKS?: that seems to be the cool thing to do.
FOR THEIR REPUTATION? FROM WHAT PEOPLE SAY?: no.
BE A VEGETARIAN?: nah
WEAR PLAID WITH STRIPES?: hell yeah boy!
SING KARAOKE?: dont make me take this mic from you
GET DRUNK OFF YOUR ASS?: i was an alcoholic
SHOPLIFT?: i have
RUN A RED LIGHT?: not on purpose.
STAR IN A PORN VIDEO?: isnt that the american dream
DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE?: is my dad alive?
BE ON SURVIVOR?: fuck no! thats still on the air?
CHEAT ON A TEST?: thats the only way ive made it this far in life.
MAKE SOMEONE CRY?: yes.
CALL A TEACHER A MOTHERFUCKER?: yea
KICK A BABY?: what kind of question is that?
DATE SOMEONE MORE THAN TEN YEARS OLDER THAN YOU?: 7 is my limit.
CUSS OUT A PRIEST?: i dont wanna go 2 hell
TAKE A JOB AS A JANITOR?: maybe......if i was THAT desperate.
WEAR A THO-THO-THO-THO-THONG?: fuck no!
STAY UP ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT?: sometimes i do that.
DRINK STRAIGHT ESPRESSO?: i dont like coffee shit!
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| new lj... |
[16 May 2004|03:55pm] |
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post on my new lj, happyxgilmore6, if u dont then i will piss and moan about it
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| A walk 2 remember........ |
[09 May 2004|01:14am] |
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I just walked home from in-n-out, i was chillin' with my homie Heather, after chelsea turned soap opera on me. Wow....Heather is such a unique soul, she's on of those people that ur lucky 2 meet in a lifetime. if you could just see the way she looks into my eyes, its so amazing words couldnt do it justice. i actually am pretty sure she would never fuck me over. since this world is so very full of clones, back stabbing faggots, and pussies. i feel like we knew each other in a past life. like she brings the soul outta me, it's trippy. so after she left, i hoofed it home, about a hour long walk, it helped me think, and shit. all in all i'd have 2 say it was a good day.
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| FUCK YOU, C##### |
[08 May 2004|07:20pm] |
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She say that she still wants a friendship
She can't live her life without me as a friend
I can't figure out why I give a damn to what she wants
I don't understand the now before the then
Most of this garbage I write that these people seem to like
Is about you and how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you, I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what I showed you how you could leave it
A friend in Chicago said that I should stay persistent
If I stay around I'm bound to break resistance
Fuck you Lucy for defining my existence
Fuck you and your differences
Ever since I was a young lad with a part-time dad
It was hard to find happiness inside of what I had
I studied my mother, I digested her pain
And vowed no women on my path would have to walk the same
Travel like sound across the fate ladder
I travel with spoon to mix this cake batter
And I travel with feel, so I can with touch
It's like that, thank you very much, fuck you very much!
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Fuck the 'what happened?' I got stuck
They can peel pieces of me off the grill of her truck
Used to walk with luck, used to hold her hand
Fell behind and played the role of a slower man
I want to stand on top of this mountain and yell
I want to wake up and break up this lake of hell
I feel like a bitch for letting the sheet twist me up
The last starfighter was wounded, time to give it up
On a pick it up mission, kept it bitter
Gettin' in a million memories just to forget her
The difficulty in keepin' emotions controlled
Cookies for the road, took me by the soul
Hunger for the drama, hunger for the nurture
Gonna take it further, the hurt feels like murder
Interpret the eyes, read the lines on her face
The sunshine is fake, how much time did I waste?
Fuck you Lucy for leaving me
Fuck you Lucy for not needing me
I wanna say fuck you because I still love you
No, I'm not okay, and I don't know what to do
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Do I sound mad? Well I guess I'm a little pissed
Every action has a point, five points make a fist
You close em', you swing em', it's hurts when it hits
And the truth can be a bitch, but if the boot fits
I got an idea: You should get a tattoo that says warning
That's all, just a warning, so the potential victim can take a left
And save breath, and avoid you, sober and upset in the morning
I wanna scream, "Fuck you Lucy!"
But the problem is I love you Lucy
So instead I'ma finish my drink and have another
While you think about how you used to be my lover
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
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| fuck a biyotch! |
[07 May 2004|09:13pm] |
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wow, i never seem 2 learn, i am 2 stupid i guess. well heather, the deed has been done, its 2 late and i cant say i am suprised now...it's just people like u and i get hurt over and over cuz we wanna believe the best in people. but this world is full of a bunch of back stabbing faggots. i wise man once wrote " i dont trust a soul, not even my own, i attempted suicide and stabbed myself in the back"
- romeo gonzales
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| dj kick that shit! |
[07 May 2004|12:02am] |
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how about wickidy wickidy, wack just like ur track, how can u try an rap, u smokin crack, tell ur crew 2 step back, test me and u'll get smacked, people make a big deal, just cuz i aint black, all cover for shelter cuz this microphone attack, mic check one, dont test me son, u should buy a bullet, and rent a gun, and end ur life, how u like that one.....
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| 9 to 5 |
[06 May 2004|11:07pm] |
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Romeo Gonzales - 9 to 5 |
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i couldnt be that cat working 9-5 just to survive, i gotta be on the mic, spittin' this jive, out in the club, rippin' it live, i'm the lone ranger, i dont roll wit' a tribe, kept to myself, pushin my crew to the side, things changed man, i gotta whole new game plan, cant knock the hustle, i got no bank to flex my money muscle, but i live large, hard 2 be leave, so i wear my heart on my sleeve, lookin for the cure cuz it's so hard to breathe.....
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| sing the sorrow, turn it up so it bumps |
[05 May 2004|10:56pm] |
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sing the sorrow, turn it up so it bumps
i hear the tears of the violen,
it's enough to move me to tears,
i wish it would move me to a better place,
beyond the chase of this every day rat race,
the trail of tears will drown us all,
in this world of sink or swim,
lose or win,
chivalry is a live, and well
board women and children into the life boats,
send them off to a land of candycanes,
while we seek peace in our own melancolony,
and when were all dead and gone,
there will only be the souls of cowardly knights
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| life...... |
[05 May 2004|08:56pm] |
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man, once i think i have shit figured out, shit completly goes in a different direction. i dont even know who my homies are. shit me and raab hardly even talk anymore. it's like i just wanna cover up for shelter, cuz i have no idea whats going on around me, and i feel like i have no one 2 confide in. it's like everyone is heading in different directions, shits crazy yo! i hate not knowing what the hell is going on, but hey thats life. i could take this a month ago, i am sure of that. but when the dust settles, i know i will be there.
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